“Don’t look at me in that tone of voice.”
― Dorothy Parker
Of course you want to write for an audience, but there is a problem. You want that audience to like everything you write. Thus you do one of two things:
1. you perfect things too early, taking all the magic right out of your writing
2. You don’t write at all.
Your ability to see things from different points of view, your uber empathy, has always been both your gift and your curse. Much of the time, you are not so sure you can handle that.
A human barometer, you suffer from an abundance of caring and awareness of what’s going on around you. You can probably think of many instances from your life where being this way was at best, painful, and at worst, downright embarrassing.
Sometimes you just wish you could make yourself a bit more comfortable. You wish your human barometer could come down to somewhere in “the normal range,” whatever the fresh hell that is.
Because even if someone is looking at you, they are mostly too busy thinking about themselves to even be thinking about you at all. And even if he or she is looking at you “funny” or with a certain “tone of voice,” it is his or her problem, not yours.
Any reaction anyone gives to you or your writing is always is a reflection of them, not of you. And by the way, learning to think this way is the same thing as “getting boundaries.”
Maybe in your next life you will be someone neater and less sensitive – in “the normal range” and more appealing to the masses. But would you really want that?
Take those narratives you are so good at spinning in your head , pick up a pen and spill, spew, spit – have at it. If your editing hat with the voices of every English teacher and editor you’ve had in your life,noisily tries to rest on your head, imagine picking it up and tossing it like a Frisbee out the window. It will be there later.